Like most everyone else around here, I was sickened that Trump won. Not just pissed, sickened. Have been experiencing intense heart ache, a real ache, due to sorrow, anger and fear. Had to input something more nourishing into my heart. So I meditated after an abysmal night and mourning.
I have great friends, great family, great animals around me. Two sweet dogs are around me right now. I'm letting my heart experience the love I feel for these beautiful beings. The love I feel for family and friends. So grateful to feel love in my heart. How often are we around loved ones, but so preoccupied that we don’t take the time to feel that love physically in our hearts?
Also, I refuse to let the Republicans have my mind. I refuse to let them drive and control my thoughts. I refuse to live in that tangle of sorrow and fearful thoughts all the time now because I’m so disappointed. Nothing is worse than to have a running leakage of spirit and consciousness dripping all over my and everyone else’s shoes. But being master of my thoughts again takes effort. For me, meditation really helps me strengthen my head control. The election is bad enough, but if I let Trump and the Republicans eat my brain all the time, it’s like letting them continuously beat me up. THEY CAN’T HAVE MY HEAD! They can’t live rent-free there. So I have to make the effort to get head control back. And that can be difficult. I meditate. Not gonna spend hours talking about Trump on the internet. It’s imperative not to let Trump eat my energy and brain power. I will be the master of what goes on in my head, not Trump and the Republicans.
Trump’s victory has shaken me up for sure. Feels like a huge earthquake has torn apart the ground I was standing on. It will take some work to get back my grounding and my balance. Winter is an introspective time. I’m going to up my game of taking care of my mind and body. And I’m going to work on what’s right around me right now and not be glued to every news story on the web, not look for every horror. Not take loved ones for granted. Do conscious acts of love for them. Remember to appreciate them. Strengthen my immediate community — friends, family, dogs and cats — by acts of love and good communication. Then strengthen my larger neighborhood or group community by participation in literacy programs, or such.
Everything feels so raw right now. And it’s winter. Time to hold things close, nurture them, rebuild balance and grounding. I’m going deep local in strengthening my little corner of the world. In the spring, when I’m stronger and back in balance, I’ll be better able to know how to proceed. But I can’t do that when I feel so askew.
I will not let sadness and fear overwhelm the love I feel. Won't repress the sorrow and fear, but will not let them wipe out love. Because if I lose love, I lose everything. And I will not take love for granted. I will turn to it daily. Who do you love? Can you feel your heart open when you remember the beauty of their being? Or, if they are near, when you look upon them? Sending love to all of you who feel sorrow and fear today. We may be upon dark ages. We may find some new way because of this painful disappointment. We may have to struggle for years. We just don’t know exactly what horrors are going to rain down on us. What matters is not losing love. If we lose love, if we lose compassion, we lose everything. Love on a friend, a child (appropriately, of course), a family member, an animal today. Please don't lose love.